A Hail Mary

So I know enough about football to know a hail Mary is a last attempt, long shot throw.  At least, that's what I think it means

Peter moves out of his apartment tomorrow and thanks to a friend who seeing my inability to emotionally do anymore, made some calls using a contact she has.  As a result Peter has an interview at 2 pm tomorrow with a local long term shelter here in town.  It is a respected organization in our community with a new facility.  It would provide a place to live, food to eat and a case worker.  

The catch is Peter doesn't want to go -my interpretation for his words is it is beneath him and he'd rather go to a hotel.  An extended stay hotel has been the back up plan for this coming week. He told me he would bomb the interview.  I told him if he did I would not be asking for resources from others to put him in a hotel. I told him he didn't get to dictate how I help him. I believe Peter needs people help and not more isolation.

The other issue is Peter said he checked with them once before and he didn't qualify before because he had insurance.  His insurance is paid through tomorrow and I believe it is time to stop providing it.  This has been the big issue for months, and previously I felt I was to keep it going.  Now I believe it is time to stop.  Yet taking that step is still scary.  In honesty, Peter doesn't really qualify for it and will face penalties next tax season because you are to have a certain amount of income to qualify for the Market place insurance.  He has barely worked the past 6 months. I think it is time to cut some chords.  Peter expects me to take care of him.  He believes I should.  And there are probably others who agree with him.  I wrestle with my own thoughts knowing he has a physical problem called mental illness.  Stepping back goes against my engrained sense of taking responsibility. So entrusting him to others and ultimately God is terrifying.

I believe this shelter could be a great opportunity.  Praying for the details and Peter's cooperation if it is the next step we have been waiting for.  And wisdom to know what to do next if not.