So Peter and I are in day three of recovery phase. I think the "blues" have hit us both. I can see it in his face and feel it in my own body. We are done with the ice pack contraption and some meds. I am still administering pain meds and doing a lot of "getting this and that." And trying to encourage him to do the prescribed exercises.
My biggest concern is Peter's halfheartedness about the exercises he is to be doing daily. He is not doing any weight bearing on the leg either which he should be. He just says it hurts. Which no doubt it does. I keep telling him how important it is to do them but get minimal response. Then whenever I mention to others that he is not wanting to do the exercises, they are like "oh he has to or it will be worse," and then my anxiety increases. I feel as if I am failing my responsibility cause I can't make him do it. Somehow I feel like I should be able to and I am failing because I am not. (This is a common theme with Peter and me.)
So please pray for Peter to have the internal motivation to do what he needs to to get his knee working again. Pray that he will push through the pain. I do not have much power of influence with Peter - at least not through my words. So if there is something I need to DO to motivate I need God to show and empower me. (And while being open and transparent, I ask you please not to offer me suggestions - that only stirs up my anxiety.) Pray for God to show me. And if there is someone else who could be motivational to Peter (and I have no idea who that would be as his social base is so small) pray that that person would enter the picture.
This experience is going to make us both stronger but at the moment it has us both feeling pretty kicked to the ground in weakness.
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Linda, I was planning to message you today to ask about Peter's surgery since I haven't been getting your blog e-mails since August, but I looked at the blog today so I will be praying for you and Peter as you go through this experience! Love in Christ, Jaime
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