How is Peter?

I find this a tough question.  How is Peter's mental state? his health? his situation?  How do I feel about Peter? What about Peter is true and what do I perceive, project, or fear? There are a variety of angles. 

From the best that I can tell, Peter is well.  His mental health is stable.  I don't think that there is any paranoia, the hearing of voices, crazy grandeur thinking, or major mood swings. He is generally reasonable and fun to be with.  He has been managing his money well. He goes to work 3 evenings a week and I think he does a good job. He and Brent, his roommate, get along and keep the apartment clean. Peter and I have a weekly breakfast and grocery shopping date as well as he and Mamma Millie go to church and lunch on Sundays. He has gained weight due to meds but mostly due to his diet yet he doesn't seem obsessed with it as he has been before.  Peter has been on this lower dose of Olanzapine for 9 months and it seems to be keeping the bad effects away while preserving Peter's true person.  These are good things.  Amazing things for which I am grateful.

There are things ahead that have me a bit apprehensive.  I am trying not to worry or panic.  Yet with his past history, it's hard not to go down the trail of  "what if." I will share them because that is part of what this space is for.  I vent.  You pray.  And hopefully, I remember to share the way God worked through it.

 *side note - my wrist is healing best I can tell.  The cast is often irritating and limiting.  I am scheduled to have it removed this coming Wednesday.  It is hard (though not impossible ) to type with it.  So this may be a more limited telling than intended.

• Peter is scheduled for Jury duty this week.  Peter's Avita doctor, for reasons unknown, would not sign him an excuse.  I can hope he does not get called to appear as has happened with me.  Ultimately I aim to trust God will use experience in a positive way that I can't imagine.
• Alexis with Supportive Housing who has been so great helping Peter, has left for another job.  I have talked with Sarah who is his case manager. I am hopeful.  I learned that the agency that has been so helpful, isn't the agency I thought was helping, If that makes sense. It was Avita Act Team that got him his housing through Supportive Housing.  That program, Supportive Housing has been the heavy lifter in helping Peter the past months  My hope is that Sarah will help with the SSI as Alexis was the one who had been.
• There is nothing new on the SSI disability however Peer has been receiving checks (larger than disability) from Social Security that I don't understand.  Yet I am grateful for the money.  The impending loss of Medicaid in January is the unsettling part.
• Peter has been saving all this money because presently Peter's living expenses are low, He is now ready to buy a car.  This is the part that freaks me out.  His added independence would be nice but his car history...oh the anxiety it stirs up.  And though his mental state is good, he will buy what is shiny in his price range but perhaps not the most sound. We may be car shopping next weekend. 
• The communication with the Avita agency is poor.  Peter needs to sign something so they can talk with me.  It would be helpful for me to know what they can and can't do.
• There here are a couple of legal issues that I feel I need to help Peter with (medical debt and praise God and thank
• My desires for Peter spiritually and socially continue to weigh heavily.

There are a lot of "what if's" but even so many more "Praise God".  God has done amazing things for Peter in the past year.  I am grateful and thankful to you for your coming along beside me.