Making contact

I know the last post sounded a bit desperate, so i'm gonna give you a quick update. Peter called today. He was indeed disappointed that he did not have a court appearance on Tuesday. He said that he wanted to get mad at "someone" but knew it wouldn't help him get out any quicker. He was in pretty good humor talking about what he wants to eat when he gets out. He also shared some of his more humorous survival skills he's developed while in jail. Getting to talk with peter helped relieve some of my anx.

I had messages from both my jail contact as well as the Avita Community Partners contact. Although no new progress was shared, their contact was reassuring. None of us have heard from the group home nor know exactly why it seems to have dropped off the edge. The impression they were given was that the interview had gone well. We all have continued to reach out to the group home.

Peter's public defender called to talk with me this evening. I like him. He helped clarify some things. Nothing has been resolved but he is working on a game plan as Peter will have to go to court soon. I'm not sure exactly what soon is defined as but Perhaps next week or the following.

I know That many were praying and I really do appreciate it. The communication I received helped a lot. Thank you for continuing to pray as we keep moving forward.

the message of the silence

Peter was scheduled for court yesterday. I have not heard from him nor anyone  else since. I have emailed the group home, my jail contact, and the Avita contact with no response from any of them. I find it all concerning. 

I will confess that I am getting close to wanting to just go and get Peter released to me and try to figure it out from there. I don't know if this is Mom instinct or God. Although I continue to believe that he would really benefit from an agency or a group of people helping to guide him, the truth is those just don't seem to be available. Most of the people I meet with at the NAMI support group, are taking care of their own in some capacity. It causes me to wonder what I am supposed to do. I don't feel like I have the resources but I have seen God provide before. Peter is not a criminal who needs to be in jail. He's currently stable and remains there at this point because there seems to be nowhere else for him to go. 

I am not asking for anyone's opinion, So you don't need to write and tell me. I am asking that you will pray that God will make it clear to me what I'm to do next. I need to know if I'm to keep waiting on the system or if i'm to step in. Honestly at this point i'm not sure what I am to do. 

Thank you

Thank God for Jeannie

When I get a little antsy regarding Peter? I send an email to my contact at the jail, Jeannie the mental health liason. And let me tell you, that lady is on it. When I tell her I haven't heard from peter she will check to see why. This time it was because he had been moved within the jail and left his earphones behind which made him unable to use the ipad to call me. She reminded him he could use the payphone in the day room,  So yesterday he did called me. He was in good spirits. Unable to use his ipad for music and podcast, Peter has been planning how he wants to celebrate this coming forth of July and Christmas. He has lots of nostalgic plans making up for this past year.

There has been no news from the group home. Jeannie did tell me that the court really does not want to release Peter unless there is a solid plan. He Is schedule to appear in court this Tuesday. Peter thinks he'll be out by Wednesday. Still a lot of unknown but we know who holds the future. So I continue to trust that God will give Peter a safe place to land with needed support as this is what we've been asking for. And as I was reminded this week , God can do immeasuring more than we ask or imagine.

Thanks for hanging in there with me. I appreciate it a lot.

Thursday night and I wait

Peter called Tuesday to say that he had a meeting with Avita (the local mental health agency) as well as a Zoom call with the group home.  He called later to tell me he talked with his Public Defender and may appear in court this week or at least next.  I have been waiting to hear from Peter since . Uncharacteristic for the past two weeks, I have gone 2 days without a call from Peter.

My contact from the group home let me know the interview was taking place and he would follow up with me afterward.  When I had no call Tuesday, I e-mailed that evening to inquire.  Wednesday morning he sent an e-mail to say that things had been crazy and he would call me later that day.  That was yesterday and as of tonight, I have not heard anything.  

My fantastic contact at the jail Jeannie, e-mailed me today.  She said she had sent an e-mail to the group home to see what the time frame would be if accepted. She also said that the court wants to get Peter directly from jail to the group home to help prevent a layover at my house that may lead him to refuse to go to the group home.  I appreciate that. 

So I wait.

I went back to work today feeling much better.  My paperwork has been organized and my tax papers are at the accountants!  Can I hear an AMEN??? I went to work today grateful for the time at home to "get my ducks in a row." I even "did" my fingernails last night.  And do you know what makes all of this even better?  Tomorrow is Friday!  Much to be grateful for.

Please Pray

I have talked to peter every day for the past week . He sounds really good. He's ready to get out. And of course I don't blame him. He was excited that today for the first time he had been given a spoon. Like really, he has had no eating utensils all this time. He also said he's excited to now have sheets as well as a blanket. He hasn't always had sheets. I'm sure it's safety issues with someone who's mentally ill. But it's hard to imagine , isn't it.  According to what people are telling Peter , he's hoping it's within the next couple of weeks that he will be able to leave. 

According to my sources , they are hoping to have a interview with him and the group home this week. I assume it's virtual. Please pray that the door will clearly open or close on this possibility. And if not this group home then pray something will miraculously come forth. It's time for Peter to get out. He is willingly taking medication and seems stable. But he most definitely needs support. It will be really hard for me to deny him a place to live if something else Isn't available. I continue to believe Peter living with me is not for his or my best at this point. Yet he is my boy, And I want him in a safe place. So please pray that a safe and supportive place will be available to him.

On a side note. I had big plans for this 3 day weekend. I was going to get Lots of paperwork done and spend time with mom as well as a friend. But I tested positive for covid yesterday and i'm in the midst of quarantine. I'm feeling better today. Please pray that I will use the time wisely and get the dreaded paperwork done during my quarantine. This particular bit of paperwork is a continuing shadow over my head! I really desire to get it organized and Manageable.

Thanks for everything.  I am always grateful for you!!!

On the road again

Today I traveled with anna and her girls to North Carolina.  We came to celebrate the anticipated arrival of Patrick and Ava Taylor's baby girl. It was five months ago that I made the same journey with Anna and the kids to participate in a Baby Shower for Haley's little boy Adam. It is always fun to be a part of these Adam's family celebrations.  I am grateful to be able to tag along with Anna so that I do not have to make the seven hour journey alone.

It was while I was here the last time that I left Peter in a very unstable state on my front porch. While I was gone he was arrested and taken to jail for a disorderly conduct misdemeanor. In truth he was taken there for his safety because of his severe instability. It has been five months and he is still incarcerated. 

During today's events, I have had three conversations with Peter as well as one with my mental health contact at the jail. Peter has started taking medication again. His thinking is  reasonable and we've had good conversations. He took the initiative to get his public defender's phone number from me and called him today. He said the PD was coming to see him next week. I know from my conversation with Jeannie, that they are now trying to get Peter set up with the group home if at all possible as soon as possible. There are quite a few pieces that need to fall into place.

I want to begin by expressing my gratitude to God for Peter resuming his medication. That indeed it is an answered prayer. I am grateful for the people that have been working on his behalf. I am also grateful for the many things I have been able to do during the last five months. It is possible that upon Peter's release to the group home (or wherever), I will need to be a bit more involved  The repreave has been much enjoyed.

Thank you for continuing to pray that Peter can get good support moving forward. The group home in Warner Robbins seems to be the best option.  I pray that if it is , that needed steps will happen in a timely manner.  I am so grateful to know that I'm not alone in this journey as I advocate for peter before our Mighty and compassionate God.  Thank you.