Two more things

 I want to ask of you 2 more things.

1. Pray for a place for Peter to live.  I am told this is impossible.  But the bible tells me God can do the impossible.  In addition to medical help and people who can assist with processes, Peter needs a safe place to sleep and be to help with his process of healing.
2. Please don't view Peter as the enemy to be avoided and feared.  Yes he can get angry and he has said hateful words. There are times, off of his medication,  he has been threatening in his manner. But EVERYTIME it is in response to his own fear and distress  Mental illness alters ones reality and it is scary.  Not knowing where one is going to sleep and eat in addition to having no money intensifies this fear.  We talk about wild animals that get all scary and say - in truth they are more scared of you.  They react in a threatenin manner out of their own fight for survival.  Peter is fighting for survival and the response is people run away.  He is treated with little kindness. Why?, because everyone is afraid.  I am not afraid of Peter.  I am worn out and tired of 20 years of being an enabler in an enabling relation. This relationship doesn't help either one of us and I am trying to break that cycle  Bu my experience has been, there is little help out there. So if I don't help him, really who will.  Experience shows not that many people because everyone is afraid. Yes I am cautious around Peter but primarily because the people around me keep telling me how scared they are for me.  Peter doesn't need more people making him out to be this "scary threatening person needing to be avoided,"  He needs geniuine kindness and compassion. People act like I am the victem here.  Mental illness is a horrible thing for the person who has it.  I don't think I even compreshend it.  And yes it is horible for the people who love them. There are lots of people out there with mental illness.  They didn't ask for it any more than a cancer patient  asked for cancer.  They are not the enemy. They need our kindness, compassion and help.  For they are someone's child.  They are probably loved by a mom somewhere and most definitely loved by God.