Moving Forward

 I wanted to give a little update of what has been happening since the last posting.

Mom:

Mom went home Saturday afternoon March 11th.  She is regaining her energy as she recovers from the pacemaker surgery. Mom is still sore and limited, yet it seems to have helped as her breathing is much improved and she has not had any swelling in her feet.  We met with her main cariologist today and he was pleased with the progression.  This past Thursday she met with two  different doctors and when we weren't in their offices I was on the phone trying to get a hold of another one doctor.  A procedure had been planned for today called a TEE that involved going through mom's esophagus to see what was happening with her heart.  This was a problem because of mom's esophagus issues.  She has had it stretched several times and the last time it was done the Dr.  told me she shouldn't have any more procedures like that as tearing was too risky.  We managed to get it postponed and today the Cardiologist confirmed it would be best for her not to have it.  The "never happened" heart Cath  from the hospital visit has been rescheduled for this Wednesday.  I really do appreciate her Cardiologist.  He is agreement that they continue to do all they can to improve mom's heart function. Just prior to hospitalization, it was down to 20-25% as opposed to 55-60% where it should be. He says this improvement is hopeful with the new pacemaker, the findings in the heart Cath and the medications she is on.  Yet he seems to understand quality of her life is as important to the function of her heart.  

Mom and I took a little road trip into the North GA mountains yesterday to meet up with an old family friend we hadn't seen in MANY years.  His mother was a good friend of my mom's 50 years back and she just died last month. It was a beautiful day for a drive and fun to reconnect. 

Thank you for praying for her as she has her heart cath procedure Wednesday and  continues to recover.  I know she is anxious to get outside to plant flowers!

Peter:

I have not heard much from him in the past week. We had a brief meet up last Thursday that did no end well. He says he has been applying for a job although he is specific about what he wants and doesn't.  He also says he will either get a job so he can pay rent or live in a shelter.  He told me that he wanted me to leave him alone.  That is what would make him happy.  Since then he has answered my text when I needed pin number info and he has asked me an information question.  That's what I know.  I don't know what he really needs but I know what I think he needs or want him to have.  So I am going to share my prayer request for him.  But I could be wrong (about all but the needing Jesus part) so pray as you are so led.

• A job he can be successful at
• housing he can afford
• someone or a group of someone's to take an interest in him and invest in him * this is the one I have been begging for!!!
• he is needing a surgical procedure - not life threatening but highly recommended 
• sound mind
• and most of all JESUS

In regards to Peter I need wisdom about paying his health insurance or not; getting his new phone transaction done this week - I would love someone else to be the go between for us: wisdom to know when and how to help especially when he says he doesn't want it; divine intervention in the intense anxiety over him that I occasionally experience.

Me:

I thought the rollercoaster I was on with Peter when he was living here was intense.  Turns out it was little more than a "Scooby Doo" in comparison to the Fury 325 I currently am riding.  (Carowinds reference.)  I can fluctuate between the great joy of peace in my home to the terror of the unknown in about 10 seconds.  I have known that I have control issues since I was 19 when it was pointed out to me. I am realizing how much of my life has been spent trying to control things so that I can stay off of such rollercoasters.  It has done some damage.  And now I find it hard to break in areas that I have let my efforts at control take hold and terrifying in places where any pretense of control has been ripped away from me. 

Easter weekend happens to fall on my annual personal Beach trip to Sea View Inn, Pawleys Island this year. I lay claim to the best room in the Inn during the second weekend of April.  I actually added an extra night this year because I was having to pack up and leave just about the time I was finally getting relaxed. The trip is a highlight of my year and the current carrot dangling in front of me.  Truthfully I am anxious and fearful that something will happen while I am gone or that something will prevent me from going.  I will accept whatever comes but I don't want the trip to be clouded in fear.

Thank you for your inquiry's, encouragement, and prayers.  It is much appreciated.