So if you haven't figured it out yet, I emotionally tend to ride the roller coaster. It has probably always been a bit that way but at this point in life the loops and falls tend to happen within a 24 hour period as compared to being spread out over days or weeks. I typically wake up plunging down fast and make the climb to the top by the time I reach my awesome preschoolers. Throughout the day there will be some twist and turns and as evening hits I tend to plummet down again. The big question always is whether the physical is influencing the emotional or the emotional is influencing the physical. I am somewhat supplement dependent to get through the day and my coworkers know when I accidentally forget to take them in the morning. Though I think I would be much happier to live life on a simple Tea cup Saucer ride, I am trying not to fret and embrace the ride.
With that preamble you can imagine that since I shared about the great visit with Peter's PT's, there have been highs and lows.
Low - Friday, I lost it with Peter in a situation that I could have handled so much better than I did. And I can feel the residual from him as a result.
High - Mom and I had a delightful celebration of her birthday Saturday afternoon having lunch and window shopping.
Low - Cable TV means I am staying up too late and I am making poor food choices so I feel kind of yuck.
High - Sunday afternoon was somewhat lazy while talking with two dear long distance friends on the phone.
Low - Peter decides he isn't using his crutches so is walking like Quasimodo. I am pretty sure he does not have his brace on accurately but he will not accept any advice or expressions of concerns from me.
High - I bought a purple mum, some baby pumpkins and new white chairs for my outside decoration.
Low - I shouldn't have spent the money on the above items.
High - We are headed for the beach in 3 days.
Low - There is a Hurricane headed the way of that beach.
On and on the ride goes. So currently I am praying for emotions that resembles one of those sedate kiddie rides at the amusement park and for clear direction about what we do regarding this beach trip.
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